Mom, I know I let you down And though you say your days are happy Why's the power off and I'm fluffed up? And Mom, I know he's not around But don't you place the blame on me As you pour yourself another drink, yeah I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on Maybe we took this too far I went in head first Never thinking about who, what I said, heard In what verse My mom probably got it the worst The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are Did I take it too far? Cleaning out my closet and all them other songs But regardless, I don't hate you Cause Mom, you're still beautiful to me Cause you're my mom Though far be it from you to be calm My house was Vietnam, desert storm And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb Equivalent to chemical warfare And forever we could drag this on and on But agree to disagree That gift from me up under the Christmas tree Don't mean *** to me You're kicking me out? It's 15 degrees and it's Christmas Eve Little bitch, just leave Mom, let me *** my Fnick off coat Anything to have each other's goats Why we always at each other's throats? Especially when Dad, he fluffed us both We're in the same Fnick boat You'd think that'd make us close Further away, it drove us But together, headlights shining Car full of belongings Still got a ways to go Like the grandma's house, it's straight up the road And I was the man of the house, the oldest So my shoulders carried the weight of the load Then Nick got taken away by the state at eight years old And that's when I realized you were sick And it wasn't fixable or changeable And to this day, we've remained estranged And I hate it, though, but I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark that I drive on Maybe we took this too far Cause to this day, we remain estranged And I hate it, though Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbaby's growth But I'm sorry, Mama, for cleaning out my closet at the time I was angry, rightfully, maybe so Never meant that far to take it, though Cause now I know it's not your fault And I'm not making jokes That song I no longer play at shows And I cringe every time it's on the radio And I think of Nathan being placed in a home And all the medicine you fed us And how I just wanted you to taste your own But now the medication's taking over And your mental state's deteriorating slow And I'm way too old to cry to *** that's painful, though But, Ma, I forgive you So does Nathan, yo All you did, all you said You did your best to raise us both Forced to care, that cost you bare Few may be as heavy as yours But I love you, Debbie Mathers Oh, what a tangled web we have Cause one thing I never asked was Where the *** my deadbeat dad was Oh, ***, I guess he had trouble Keeping up with every address But I'd have flipped every mattress Every rock and desert cactus Owned a collection of maps And followed my kid to the edge of the atlas Someone ever moved him from me? That, you could've betcha, Al If I had to come down the chimney Dressed as Santa, kidnap him And all but one has only met their grandma Once, you pulled up in our drive one night As we were leaving to get some hamburgers Me, her, and Nate We introduced you, hugged you And as you left, I had this overwhelming sadness Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths And I saw your headlights as I looked back And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to Thank you for being my mom and my dad So, Mom, please accept this as a tribute I wrote this on the jet I guess I had to get this off my chest I hope I get the chance to lay it for him Take this to the center, fasten my seatbelt I guess we're crashing So, if I'm not dreaming I hope you get this message that I Will always love you from afar Cause you're my mom I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on Maybe we took this too far One new life One without a cause So, I'm coming home tonight Well, no matter what the cost And if the plane goes down Or if the crew can't wake me up Well, just know that I'm alright I was not afraid to die Oh, even if there's songs to sing Well, my children will carry me Just know that I'm alright I was not afraid to die Because I put my faith in my new girl So, I'll never say goodbye Well, just know that I'm alright I was not afraid to die I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on Maybe we took this too far One new life